lied even while you held my hand.

one year ago my life was so much different. i firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, possibly because -- what other choice do we have to believe in? but, i was so comfortable with my life a year ago. i can't be sure if i was happier. i just, didn't feel so alone i guess.

but! inevitably we are alone right? the person we truly have in this world is ourselves. it's terrifying. what's more terrifying, maybe, is actually realizing this.

wish i was in any of these locations now: