because who doesn't need some, sometimes.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
MYSPACE.
and add:
www.myspace.com/hmyesok
thank you!
i changed my password one day and forgot to remember it for later. go figure.
cheater, cheat her.
"I LOVE YOU, I ALWAYS WILL."
"I'VE MISSED YOU SO MUCH."
"IF WE CAN'T COME OVER, I'LL TAKE A TAXI TO YOUR APARTMENT."
yeah, i'm the idiot. hahaha
Sunday, March 22, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
I think I may of come to a conclusion about love. When you start needing someone, they stop loving you. Everyone I’ve ever loved didnt need me. And everyone that ended up needing me I didnt love. Maybe needing someone is the worst possible mistake we can make.. Maybe we’re all so fucked up and stressed out and tired that when we feel like someone else is depending on us for love, or happiness our hearts begin to shut down. Maybe we fear we arent capable of that responsibility. Maybe our hearts want us to love things that dont need us. Because then, its a choice. I am with this person because I want to be, because they make me happy and I them. Not because I feel emotionally responsible for them. Do you need someone because your in love with them?? Or are you in love with them because you need them? Or is it neither…
Alice: Is it because she’s successful?
Dan: No. It’s because… she doesn’t need me
when you have no stomach for it
and everything you’ve held dear
crumbles like burnt paper in your hands,
your throat filled with the silt of it.
When grief sits with you, its tropical heat
thickening the air, heavy as water
more fit for gills than lungs;
when grief weights you like your own flesh
only more of it, an obesity of grief,
you think, How can a body withstand this?
Then you hold life like a face
between your palms, a plain face,
no charming smile, no violet eyes,
and you say, yes, I will take you
I will love you, again.
the thing is - ellen bass
Friday, March 20, 2009
if you were coming in the fall.
If you were coming in the Fall,
I'd brush the Summer by
With half a smile, and half a spurn,
As Housewives do, a Fly.
If I could see you in a year,
I'd wind the months in balls --
And put them each in separate Drawers,
For fear the numbers fuse --
If only Centuries, delayed,
I'd count them on my Hand,
Subtracting, till my fingers dropped
Into Van Dieman's Land.
If certain, when this life was out --
That yours and mine, should be
I'd toss it yonder, like a Rind,
And take Eternity --
But, now, uncertain of the length
Of this, that is between,
It goads me, like the Goblin Bee --
That will not state -- its sting.
-Emily Dickinson
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
one a cheater, always a cheater baby.
sucks right?
Sunday, March 15, 2009
— Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
weeeeendoes. -- prof. shyu
excited maybe, crawling into the lions den.
things i learned today while in sustainable design class:
- a conventional water closet takes about 1.6 gallons per flush (GPF).
- a urinal takes 1.0 GPF.
- they do, however, offer waterless urinals. the maintenance is expensive but, think of all the saved water!
- conventional shower takes around 2.5 gallons per minute (GPM).
learn something new everyday.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Friday, March 6, 2009
isn't this fun?
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
owen.
Tomato soup and grilled cheese
But you already know that because you used to dine with me
Do you remember?
I listen to my same old cds
New Order & Morrissey
But you already know that because you used to ride with me
I thought I'd be singing a different tune by now
But the song about you keeps coming out
I sleep in these dirty sheets
A blanket between my bony knees
But you already know that because you used to crawl in bed with me the morning before work
Put your hands on my back
Kiss the back of my neck
I thought I'd be singing a different tune by now
But the song about you keeps coming out
I’d hoped to be singing to someone new by now
But the songs about you.
Monday, March 2, 2009
stressed, always.
i teeter totter between being stressed about where i'm living next year, my friends, school, my appearance, boys, and work. goddamn. i found out today that there is a good chance i can get my associates degree! i'm going to see my academic adviser tomorrow to figure it out. i am currently like 64 credits deep into school, so, if associates is in fact within my reach -- school during the spring/summer and then i'll move out of state. (crosses fingers) i have to stop talking about shit and start actually doing it. scary.